Evaluation Of My Life

The title of this post suggest that I might be very old, have lots of life experiences or just plain contemplative today.

I am 36, so hopefully not that old, yes do have some life experiences and definitely very contemplative today. I am on leave from work today and this is something I am not accustomed to. You will realise as you read this post that I do not take leave for no reason at all, in case I need them in emergencies. So why have I broken my own rule?

I have a full time job, a large family with 4 kids and multiple family members to manage. I am the wife, mother, business manager, financial officer, doctor, nurse, chef, teacher, disciplinarian, cleaner and whatever people need or want me to be.

I took leave today because I have quite a few days to clear. Simple reason. As I sit here in my home office, I remember the advice I got on how to spend this day.

"Just do nothing, put up your feet and relax and be yourself."
"Go have a massage or just think about your life and what you achieve so far, what you want to achieve going forward."

I pondered over this for a week. This is the day and I still don't have a plan.

I had a bad night with my youngest son and woke up feeling really tired. After sending the kids out the door to the child care centre, I had a quick breakfast with DH. He had to get to work early to day and thus could not have our usual more leisurely breakfast.

I started off switching on my laptop. I even set up a few work conference calls for clients and answered a few emails. Then Facebook. I must make sure I log in so that I get my free ingredients for my game, Restaurant City. Then I proceed to harvest some corn and potatoes in Happy Farm. I read some of the feed and then login to clear my personal mail. 9.30am and still no plan.

It was then that I realise, I don't need a plan. Just do what I want and what I like or what just comes. The point is to take it easy. I don't need to have the usual to-do list that I will check off as the day goes. The point is to rest and not think too much. This crazy world certainly did not help with the increasing pace everyday and the need to achieve and squeeze as much work as possible into the day.

Here am I typing this blog and enjoying myself. Putting in writing one day of my life. Hopefully when I read this in the future, I will be able to gain something about myself and my life. Perhaps even put things into perspective.

Which is the whole point of today right? Okay need to get that nature walk in before lunch so that I can go for a relaxing manicure.

Or not.

Note: This post was originally posted on my personal blog on 17 June, 2009.